It’s Sunday again.
And I have an extremely extremely nervous itching uneasy uncomfortable feeling.
It’s Sunday again.
And I have an extremely extremely nervous itching uneasy uncomfortable feeling.
From the moment we enter this life, we are in the flow of it. We measure it and we mark it, but we cannot defy it. We cannot even speed it up or slow it down. Or can we? Have we not experienced the sensation that a beautiful moment seem to pass too quickly and wished that we could make it linger? Or felt time slow on a dull day and wished we could speed things up a bit?
- The Illusionist
I have learn that I should be aware of the things I say to different people.
It’s surprising enough for me that they will see it in a different way.
Much much different way.
I think I have been around people i’m so comfortable with so much, that once if you throw me to another different environment, I have to mind the words I say.
Somehow, I know I have to get through this.

Now, i have the deepest respect for firefighters.
“… and if any one saved a life, it would be as if he saved the life of all mankind.” (Al-Ma’dah: 32)
I try my best to relax over the weekends, trying not to think about the things i did over the weekdays, but i just can’t.
It’s 7.15pm now.
Nowadays when i think about something, i keep relating to the present moment.
It kills me inside.
What I need is something to look forward to everyday instead of the weekends. And of course something to calm me down.
I’m never going to take time for granted no more.
All things must pass.
All things must pass.

A friend who is far away is sometimes much nearer than one who is at hand. Is not the mountain far more awe-inspiring and more clearly visible to one passing through the valley than to those who inhabit the mountain?
-Kahlil Gibran
How much you might think you mean to someone might not be what it might mean to that someone.
It doesn’t feel like how it used to be no more.
Those days are long gone.
I truly miss them.
Firstly, I would like to thank Abel, Evan, Chloe, Reyza, Rex and Aeem for the wonderful gift. It was just what i really needed to start off this new chapter of my life.
Alot of things happened since i graduated from school.
Looking back now, it’s funny when you think you got it all thought out, only to find out at the end, you’re got nothing really.
Right after another, they left, in a symbolic sense.
In a way, it pretty sumed up nicely for me, sadly.
I used to tell myself to be hopeful in everything.
I don’t now.
Hope can be a good motivating factor but once it becomes false, i’m sorry to say you’ve actually dug a grave for yourself. So to speak.
The wonderful times. The silent times. The disappointing times.
For those who’ll remember, i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Alright.
Take care, whoever’s reading this.
Till then.